Ns, my leg, life,

Friday, May 14, 2010

I hate how things have turned out alrdy
Stupid NS
Its put a wedge into my messy life
Like dropping out of skool isnt bad enuff...
I had time for so much
now NS has taken all my freedom
Yeh i get 2 days off a week b4 i go back in
but still 2 days after taking 5 others each week...
I just feel like there is a distance between me and the youth le... I dun feel like the fun me i used to be.. but i feel like a hindrance...
I cant have fun anymore...
its not the same
And my sis she wants to send me off every week on sundays. And yes i Love that she does so
But seriously, why must i hinder her like this.
NS
ALL NS FAULT
she doesnt need to waste every sunday evening sending me off like that
SHYT
she can enjoy herself with some guy she likes what... walk his dog with him enjoy the moments spent with him. Dun need to be hindered by me ma
STUPID NS
wedged my relationship with friends... I feel so needy now
Like i need my friends so badly, but seeing how everyone has a life, i dun want to come across as wanting them around so much. but its so emotionally terrorizing la
I dun need to go thru all this
i used to be so close to some buddies... but now hardly see them anyway... some think i dun miss them anymore.. so hence the distance... SHYT
I sometimes just wish i had some accident bad enuff to get my leg broken or fractured bad enuff to get me outta NS... its how badly i want to get outta all this...
POP in 3 weeks... but after that it still is ns... just slightly more time... but it doesnt help the present situation cuz by then the distance would have been too long to fix... ppl would have had new besties new friends.... who'd need james?
who'd want needy james around anymore?
NS
NS
NS
HATE NS
if NS were a person, he/she'd be dead now and i would hide the blood stained knife with a smile.

I even have friends now that i dun talk to... like wth right?
NS can just eat shit and die sia
DIE DIE DIE
AND BURN IN HELL PLZ!!!
DIE!
For taking away my life, that has to be a sin....
I miss my old life seriously... GIVE IT BACK!!!
God take my leg away... seriously...

Here comes Goodbye

I can hear the truck tires coming up the gravel road
And its not like her to drive that slow, nothings on her radio
Footsteps on the front porch, I hear my doorbell
She usually comes right in, now I can tell

Here comes goodbye, here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear I'm gonna cry
Here comes the pain, Here comes me wishing things had never changed
And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye

I can hear her say I love you like it was yesterday
And I can see it written on her face that she had never felt this way
One day I thought Id see her with her daddy by her side
And violins would play here comes the bride

But here comes goodbye, here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear Im gonna cry
Here comes the pain, Here comes me wishing things had never changed(d)
And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye

Why does it have to go from good to gone?
Before the lights turn on, yeah and you're left alone
All alone, but here comes goodbye

Oh-oh-oh-oh

Here comes goodbye, here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear I'm gonna cry
Here comes the pain, Here comes me wishing things had never changed
And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye

Ns, my leg, life,

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