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Saturday, July 24, 2010

I heard from someone sometime ago...
Friends dun last forever... each new phase of your life means new friends. as each chapter closes, some friends will just leave.
Seriously? friends will leave?
I mean what happened to friends forever or brothers forever?
and why would friends leave unless there was something wrong with u...
i dunno
but lately yeh, friends have been leaving
looked at myself and yeh there prolly is something wrong with me
im pretty sure those still around will leave someday
i just wish someone would hug me and say," I'm your friend, and i wont ever leave you"
But then again, i would'nt want that person to be lying if he/she is eventually gonna leave.
Many times i want to have my fair share of ranting or just letting it all out to friends like let them noe what im going thru.
but most of the time, no... ALL the time, they'd emo. and cuz well they are emoing, i dun wanna be stupid and emo along with them. two emos cannot come together thats for sure.
so i suck it up and be the friend ready to hear :)
And yes there are the friends hu dun realli wanna noe ur issues. cuz well they noe something's up, so they come over and are like "Hey man how are u?" and before u answer they start pouring their problems to u. So for them, "How are u" is a conversation starter. lucky for them, im ready to hear and i do want to hear cuz i constantly run out of things to pray for at night.
so i like intercessing for such guys.
and yes
there are the ppl hu realli genuinely wanna hear ur issues.
so they do "How are U". but seriously. in front of many other ppl in the room ur gonna ask me how am i when im about to tear up?
u actually think im gonna pour out all my issues crying to u in front of everyone... seriously?
So of course my reply wuld be something to avoid all that... "Im fine thx"
ha
Maybe i pray without enuff faith or whatever u wanna call it. but i havent given up praying.
Pray is all i do cuz its all i can do.
i feel helpless about my life as well as the life of others.
I used to make so much impact in helping others. now? my words dun carry weight anymore.
Am i growing too old for Oasis?
like i feel outta place.

But i have a plan. Im planning some change.
I felt God reveal my purpose to me.
Im sticking to it till im proved otherwise.
In fact, if things work out right, Oasis will have lotsa change.
Just thinking about it is quite exciting, but also im afraid of the toughness it promises.
It all revolves around "NEW"
Yep. New.

Oh Yeah funny but i got hooked on a screamo somg LOL!
maybe the only screamo i'd ever like lol:D

haha

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