James Dance

Thanks

2010-08-25T07:20:00.000-07:00

I dun have time to put a whole lot down here.
So yeh im gonna start with the important bit

Thank God for Hong Wei
He helped me get over some negativity i been feeling.
And yes all this negativity i should have taken to the Lord a long time ago
but i was stubborn
ha

Anyways i guess i was holding too hard to the whole Terence Drama.
I got over it.
Not gonna talk still, but ive let it go.
Not talking helped u see :)

i want to share a video here
Thanks Kieran for sharing
Yes Jason chen is my new favourite youtube singer ba
haha

nice mash of 2 eminem songs :)
hehe

Emotions

2010-08-06T19:11:00.000-07:00

Always loved this song and yes the music video is finally out :)
Love megan fox here.
This video has so much emotions!
Its so so so emotional, kinda felt like crying when i saw it. but didnt :P
haha
that guy was from Lost right? haha i dunno :P

Love the way u lie huh?

Who cares

2010-07-31T10:13:00.001-07:00

I dun realli give a shyt what u do with him... dun tell me what u guys do every other day.
I dun care!
I still feel like crying when i find out u spend more time with him then me your buddy hu u claim to always want to spend time with.
But hey i get it, NS.
FML!
FML cuz of NS
I Knew it, there was no such thing as friends forever!!!
Slap me the next time i think so ok?
Oh ya, definitely there is a song for this case...

Seriously, Thank You for the wake up call.. Im gonna move on with life now ;)

Quick update

2010-07-28T16:13:00.001-07:00

I dunno how long i can blog. Gotta go conduct bunk inspection in 10 mins :P
Been trying to worship God lately. Like seriously putting time to just listen to worship songs and ponder.
I wanna take active steps and be responsible for my faith.

One song i think is very apt.
we should be curious about this King no?
Who is this King of glory?

and this next song is just another song which has been stuck in my head ever since Recruit Syarifullah and pvt alif sang it.
The harmonies were awesome. haha i dunno what the song is about, but its just nice melodically.
haha

:D

enjoy ;)

Look at me...

2010-07-24T11:09:00.000-07:00

I heard from someone sometime ago...
Friends dun last forever... each new phase of your life means new friends. as each chapter closes, some friends will just leave.
Seriously? friends will leave?
I mean what happened to friends forever or brothers forever?
and why would friends leave unless there was something wrong with u...
i dunno
but lately yeh, friends have been leaving
looked at myself and yeh there prolly is something wrong with me
im pretty sure those still around will leave someday
i just wish someone would hug me and say," I'm your friend, and i wont ever leave you"
But then again, i would'nt want that person to be lying if he/she is eventually gonna leave.
Many times i want to have my fair share of ranting or just letting it all out to friends like let them noe what im going thru.
but most of the time, no... ALL the time, they'd emo. and cuz well they are emoing, i dun wanna be stupid and emo along with them. two emos cannot come together thats for sure.
so i suck it up and be the friend ready to hear :)
And yes there are the friends hu dun realli wanna noe ur issues. cuz well they noe something's up, so they come over and are like "Hey man how are u?" and before u answer they start pouring their problems to u. So for them, "How are u" is a conversation starter. lucky for them, im ready to hear and i do want to hear cuz i constantly run out of things to pray for at night.
so i like intercessing for such guys.
and yes
there are the ppl hu realli genuinely wanna hear ur issues.
so they do "How are U". but seriously. in front of many other ppl in the room ur gonna ask me how am i when im about to tear up?
u actually think im gonna pour out all my issues crying to u in front of everyone... seriously?
So of course my reply wuld be something to avoid all that... "Im fine thx"
ha
Maybe i pray without enuff faith or whatever u wanna call it. but i havent given up praying.
Pray is all i do cuz its all i can do.
i feel helpless about my life as well as the life of others.
I used to make so much impact in helping others. now? my words dun carry weight anymore.
Am i growing too old for Oasis?
like i feel outta place.

But i have a plan. Im planning some change.
I felt God reveal my purpose to me.
Im sticking to it till im proved otherwise.
In fact, if things work out right, Oasis will have lotsa change.
Just thinking about it is quite exciting, but also im afraid of the toughness it promises.
It all revolves around "NEW"
Yep. New.

Oh Yeah funny but i got hooked on a screamo somg LOL!
maybe the only screamo i'd ever like lol:D

haha

A Bit About Me

2010-07-17T09:06:00.001-07:00

I am extremely blunt
I say what i think
I think ur ugly, i'll say so
So yeh
I dun judge tho.
I have ugly friends they dun mind i call'em ugly
Cuz i care about whats inside and they know it
Build a bridge and get over it!
I dun need You to friggin change me.
I can change myself with God guiding me
I wonder why i bothered asking for ur help
U enjoy drama so much always looking for a little chance to spite me?
Well u got it and yeh we wont be talking for a realli long time again
MOve on Bozo
Hate your attitude.
At least im trying to change.. your friggin contented with how u are huh?
Next time you point the finger i might have to bend it back or just friggin break it off.
Or i could just point u to the mirror.
BAck Off...

Quick update :D

2010-06-11T20:29:00.001-07:00

OKie im not emo le
NS is getting better...
Corporals i used to hate, i enjoy their company! haha
OH the irony... but yeh i love how i got to be an instructor. i dnno why but im happier now. i dun dread work, its boring but i dun dread it one bit
The company of these guys its just i dunno... precious?
haha

:D
Thank God :)

Ns, my leg, life,

2010-05-14T10:39:00.000-07:00

I hate how things have turned out alrdy
Stupid NS
Its put a wedge into my messy life
Like dropping out of skool isnt bad enuff...
I had time for so much
now NS has taken all my freedom
Yeh i get 2 days off a week b4 i go back in
but still 2 days after taking 5 others each week...
I just feel like there is a distance between me and the youth le... I dun feel like the fun me i used to be.. but i feel like a hindrance...
I cant have fun anymore...
its not the same
And my sis she wants to send me off every week on sundays. And yes i Love that she does so
But seriously, why must i hinder her like this.
NS
ALL NS FAULT
she doesnt need to waste every sunday evening sending me off like that
SHYT
she can enjoy herself with some guy she likes what... walk his dog with him enjoy the moments spent with him. Dun need to be hindered by me ma
STUPID NS
wedged my relationship with friends... I feel so needy now
Like i need my friends so badly, but seeing how everyone has a life, i dun want to come across as wanting them around so much. but its so emotionally terrorizing la
I dun need to go thru all this
i used to be so close to some buddies... but now hardly see them anyway... some think i dun miss them anymore.. so hence the distance... SHYT
I sometimes just wish i had some accident bad enuff to get my leg broken or fractured bad enuff to get me outta NS... its how badly i want to get outta all this...
POP in 3 weeks... but after that it still is ns... just slightly more time... but it doesnt help the present situation cuz by then the distance would have been too long to fix... ppl would have had new besties new friends.... who'd need james?
who'd want needy james around anymore?
NS
NS
NS
HATE NS
if NS were a person, he/she'd be dead now and i would hide the blood stained knife with a smile.

I even have friends now that i dun talk to... like wth right?
NS can just eat shit and die sia
DIE DIE DIE
AND BURN IN HELL PLZ!!!
DIE!
For taking away my life, that has to be a sin....
I miss my old life seriously... GIVE IT BACK!!!
God take my leg away... seriously...

Here comes Goodbye

I can hear the truck tires coming up the gravel road
And its not like her to drive that slow, nothings on her radio
Footsteps on the front porch, I hear my doorbell
She usually comes right in, now I can tell

Here comes goodbye, here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear I'm gonna cry
Here comes the pain, Here comes me wishing things had never changed
And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye

I can hear her say I love you like it was yesterday
And I can see it written on her face that she had never felt this way
One day I thought Id see her with her daddy by her side
And violins would play here comes the bride

But here comes goodbye, here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear Im gonna cry
Here comes the pain, Here comes me wishing things had never changed(d)
And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye

Why does it have to go from good to gone?
Before the lights turn on, yeah and you're left alone
All alone, but here comes goodbye

Oh-oh-oh-oh

Here comes goodbye, here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear I'm gonna cry
Here comes the pain, Here comes me wishing things had never changed
And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye

Its been so loooong!

2010-04-09T10:36:00.001-07:00

Haha... i just looked at how pathetically long i haven't updated my blog for...
YIKES!
almost 2 months
haha
well just thought i'd update :D

Im in NS now... Life there is tough
Physically challenging but im not so bummed by that...
Its the emotional and mental torture that i find myself weak against.
For the first few weeks ive been just emo-ing and even spiritually i find myself struggling some... cuz i hardly have time to read the bible.
Later on however, i found i could read it in the dark with a torch under my blanket. :D
Thank God.
Been reading mainly Psalms. I try to pray the Psalms. And i have learnt that despite all the lousiness of NS, i found i could give thanks for lotsa things.
I just went thru the 5th week of my PTP course. 3 more weeks.
Somehow im a bit sad. lol
3 weeks and its bye bye to most of my platoon mates. The same guys hu went thru the same torture i did. We have formed a great friendship and yet despite being glad that The tough part of NS is almost over, its sad to part just like that.
Hopefully we get into same vocations :D
haha
but bye bye fire fighters! lol
Im hoping i get into a vocation based in the CDA so that i can make it into MPAC (Music and Performing Arts Club)
My goal at the end of NS is to get into SP for the Digital Music and Audio Technology Course. But since im gonna be up against the other O lvl students, i better make a very appealing Portfolio this 2 years. I believe MPAC can gimme that chance :D
But to get into MPAC, 1st criteria is that my vocation has to be based at CDA lol
HOPE SO!
haha

I still dread having to go back in every sunday, but once im there, im glad to have those bunk mates :)
Jokers will always be jokers, but whats life without some trouble makers huh?
lol

I got an itouch:D
LOL

but im giving my sis my AINO phone for it... lol
well its ok i guess :)

Yesterday was my sis birthday... 8th april.
but i couldnt celebrate with her cuz of NS... lol thats the sucky bit of NS
The Weekday confinement is a shitty rule...
But im thankful at least we get to come out each weekend :)
When we get posted to our vocations though, at least we can all bookout each day :D
The timing is supposed to be 8am to 5pm everyday from then on :D
awesome :P

I wonder what i will be able to do with NS. So much uncertainty... its kinda scary...
but :)

Though i walk the darkest path, i will not fear the evil one. For You are with me and Your Rod and Staff are the comfort i need to know :)

Lately i been listening to this song by Casting Crowns
Titled : While You Were Sleeping

This song makes so much sense... Lets replace the word America with the words Oasis.
It sounds almost like a wake up call for us :)
Would we be sleeping? i dunno...
haix...

Looks like another silent night...

Music

2010-02-17T09:22:00.000-08:00

wow funny how this song speaks so much like how i feel now....

You were everything i wanted
all this time u were pretending
haha
ow...

A lot?

2010-02-17T08:13:00.000-08:00

Yep a lot...
I havent posted in a while... Happy Birthday to me :D
Got a new fone... Aino (I know :D )
Been angry for a loooong time... at dunno what...
Been awfully torn up within,... sad... but also at dunno what
SO MUCH has gone on
And i really just want a hug.
sometimes i wish i could just have a hug that lasts forever... I hate that life has to go on...
Moving on is so hard...
If YOU are reading, i just want to let YOU noe that im not angry at you, its hu u mix with so much that YOU forgot about me le... And i dunno if u realise, but i have been nothing but nice to YOU. I realli realli realli Miss the times we had... let me noe those moments were real please?
Our friendship cant just end cuz of some people right?

I realli miss u... let me noe u care and that i have only been imagining u left....

For Your entertainment

2010-02-04T06:36:00.000-08:00

I love this song luh...
This guy sing got a michael jackson feel tho...
Not the best vocals, but really nice haha
I like this kind of singers :)
They dun have to be able to hit super high notes or have large range to make a song sound awesome.
Why do people care about highs and lows so much... haha isnt it realli just about control?
:D

So hot out the box
Can we pick up the pace
Turn it up, heat it up
I need to be entertained
Push the limit, are you with it, baby, don’t be afraid
Imma hurt you real good baby

Let’s go, it’s my show, baby, do what I say
Don’t trip off the glitz that I’m gonna display
I told ya, Imma hold ya down until you’re amazed
Give it to ya til your screamin' my name

No escaping when I start
Once I’m in I own your heart
There’s no way to ring the alarm
So hold on until it’s over

Oh!
Do you know what you got into
Can you handle what I’m ’bout to do
‘Cause it’s about to get rough for you
I’m here For Your Entertainment

Oh!
I bet you thought that I was soft and sweet
You thought an angel swept you off your feet
Well I’m about to turn up the heat
I’m here For Your Entertainment

'Sall right
You’ll be fine
Baby I’m in control
Take the pain
Take the pleasure
I’m the master of both
Close your eyes, not your mind
Let me into your soul
I’m gonna work it ’til your totally blown

No escaping when I start
Once I’m in I own your heart
There’s no way to ring the alarm
So hold on until it’s over

Oh.
Do you know what you got into
Can you handle what I’m about to do
‘Cause it’s about to get rough for you
I’m here For Your Entertainment

Apologize much?

2010-01-18T09:48:00.000-08:00

I saw this video long ago, but i just recently went to watch it again... still gives me goosebumps.
This song its real to me lol
i kinda love it when she sings too :)

:D

Kingdom Hearts

2010-01-07T18:25:00.000-08:00

Yeh the game is out tmr :)
Cant wait..
Here is the latest trailer and i think it looks alright to play even tho its jap.
Shouldnt be a problem :P

Someone play with me so at least we can figure out the hard parts together :P
Japanese cant be that hard to figure out right? haha

LOL!

2010-01-06T21:05:00.000-08:00

I think i've been living under a rock or something... i nvr heard this acoustic version before.... wth

AHHHHHHHH!!! realli like this version :

And yes i love Blyss now :P
Badar rocks as usual cathy and jasmine not bad and Jenny i just love her high notes :)

:)

Love <3

Gaga

2010-01-05T19:56:00.000-08:00

Damn she's good :P

Haha

Cant get enuff of her :)

long time

2009-12-29T22:42:00.000-08:00

Havent updated in so long... just suddenly liked this song again...
haha

enjoy ba

Everything that matters?

2009-12-08T22:34:00.000-08:00

Some ppl get everything :D
Im not some ppl...

Friends

2009-12-06T07:43:00.000-08:00

Doncha just love "FRIENDS"
haha
I do:D

Shake it:)

LOL

A little too not over you

2009-12-03T20:17:00.000-08:00

Haha
I fell in love with this song again...
lol
And the lyrics speak to me, not in the BGR way tho...

Lyrics:

"A Little Too Not Over You"

Oohhhh oh, oh..

It never crossed my mind at all.
It's what I tell myself.
What we had has come and gone.
You're better off with someone else.
It's for the best, I know it is.
But I see you.
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside,
And I turn around.
You're with him now.
I just can't figure it out.

Tell me why you're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.
Not over you....

Memories, supposed to fade.
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go.
Didn't think it'd be this hard.
Should be strong, movin' on.
But I see you.
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside.
And I turn around,
You're with him now.
I just can't figure it out.

Tell me why you're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.

Maybe I regret everything I said,
No way to take it all back, yeah...
Now I'm on my own..
How I let you go, I'll never understand.
I'll never understand, yeah, oohh..
Oohhh, oohhh, oohhhh..
Oohhh, ooohhhh, oohhh.

Tell me why you're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.

Tell me why you're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
And I really don't know what to do.
I'm just a little too not over you.
Not over you, oohhh..

over

2009-12-03T11:04:00.000-08:00

i was wrong
I was blinded by anger
i hurt ppl in the process
ha

I do not mean any sarcasm at all when i type this post... so plz dun read too much into it and just take the words as they are plz...

Sry Terence...
After the long quarrel i ended with me saying sry... again
cuz its my fault really.
I nvr should have posted that post about our quarrel cuz it intensified ur pain and torture.
Im sry for our whole misunderstanding which was yet again my fault cuz it was about me believeing rumours...

Sry Mr. Cheer Leader for being so blunt about u on my blog...
Ur not disgusting :)
I am disgusting for blogging about u...

My anger just overflowed to my actions in this way ba..
I am sry guys for not being a good enuff brother from church.
It's tough... and God nvr promised otherwise... but i just gave in to my sinful nature i guess...
Maybe u guys wont forgive me, and im cool with that i guess cuz i dun deserve it after all this disrespect i gave u guys.
So i believe that my distance from u guys would do all of us good. U guys wont have to be in the fellowship of the likes of scum of the earth AKA me, while i would not have a chance to sin against u guys again.

Once again i am truly sry, do forgive me yeh?

Camp

2009-11-26T08:36:00.001-08:00

Haha.. Camp's just over...
the fun filled days of 23rd to 25th November...
I dun think i will forget them :D

Camp started on Monday with a bus ride to pasir ris park...
It rained a little, but it didnt stop us from having fun :D
Once we reached, we were given a mission to save an uncle hu was apparently locked away somewhere and we needed to save him by obtaining a key... and since by the time we found him he would be hungry, we had to along the way get him food like yellow butterflies and red dragonflies and squirrels and hybiscuz and sparrows and eppy and mudskippers... ugh...

At least that was what was on the mission description...
What we realli had to do was solve a couple of riddles and take pictures of the animals described... lol
but it was fun, deciding where to head to as a team and working together :D
The only accident then was Rickson falling over his bike which left him a bruise... Other than that, i realli thank God for the Fun :D

Then we headed back to the camp site which was a changi Ferry point chalet :D i say the place was much nicer than any place we went to every year... this was the nicest :D
Then we had a good rest with free time to spare... So i took the time to introduce my new song
titled "Hello Mr. New" to some ppl :)
It was written based on Ephesians Chapter 4:D I was inspired by the camp theme verses and decided to write that song :D
Thank God it worked out nicely :)

That night we had another assignment as teams :D
Each group was to make their own horror film... ha
Well the experience was thrilling and exciting and fun for most of us... but i could tell for some younger ones, they were scared...
At nite when it was shower time even i was a little freaked to go to the bathroom alone!!! haha so we had groups wait for each other outside the door while one showered inside.. .lol
The togetherness and simple gesture of help towards each other is just heart warming and to see urself get help from ppl u hardly noe is a great feeling and from then, it was easier to talk to those ppl and Much easier to offer help to and have fun with those ppl :)

I was a shepherd and my charges were Rickson, Amas and Sherman :)
Amas and Sherman i hardly knew since i only saw them during Praise Kids..
Amas and Sherman were p6, moving onto sec 1 next year :)
During our sharing sessions after each Devotion or Word sharing by the uncles and jiejie, they would share what they learnt. I found they picked up on what was taught rather quick... and moving onto sec 1, they had lots of questions :)
Uncle David and i answered most of those questions :) But i truly feel its still up to them to truly experience what sec skool life is like... they cant realli noe what its like thru word from mouth.
I do hope they stay close to God despite whatever distractions they may face :)

Second day was another day of fun and games similar to the first... 2nd day didnt rain at all so Thank God for great weather :D
That nite, uncle david Delivered the message with fervence that just spoke to the soul and left all us listeners reflecting... Were we ready to rededicate our lives and give them to Jesus?
I noe i was thinking about it just as Uncle David Asked us to stand for those of us hu were ready... many had stood and i was still deep in thought... Then Sheramn beside me nudged me to stand.
I knew my answer:)
I was ready to, but i didnt noe what i was hesitant for... like maybe i was asking God for that little push... and There sherman was, nudging me... I laughed at the thought and praised God :D
Its funny how God Uses ppl... haha
That nite i wasnt sure whether Most of the Youth rededicated their lives cuz of the pressure that everyone else stood or cuz They truly felt God... I was sure God was present :D
When we were back in the room, Sherman said, "Wow, Just now i could feel God" before anyone said anything and Amas was agreeing along with rickson :)
I was just Glad and for Amas and Sherman, this was probably their first time entering a spiritually high atmosphere and im glad it was a great and enriching experience for them :D

Midnight worship was alrite i guess, everyone was singing with more Togetherness than in any song we had sung before during camp... it was a great feeling... just made me want to worship all nite... but i guess many were tired so after that, we all prayed for the P6 hu got their results on Thursday(yesterday)... i Hope they got the results they'd hoped for...

The next day we all packed up and left the camp for batok... where i immediately took the bus and headed home... got home around 1pm and slept from 3pm till 9am yesterday... :P

From the camp, i noe many enjoyed and im deeply encouraged that the younger ones found the camp an amzing experience with all its fun and God's presence :D
Kudos too to the older youth this time :D
They definitely did reach out to the younger ones and thats probably the reason they found the camp fun too :)

Photos are up on Si yuan's FB profile for anyone hu cares to view em...
OH!!!
BTW!
The basketball guys :Wei Lun, Wei Kang, Yoke Ming and Shengjie are in the midst of a competition...
On wednesday after camp these guys went off to the competition :D
WL, YM and SJ were in one team and WK in another...
WL, Ym,and SJ's team lost all their matches and were posted into the Losers league... while WK won 2 of his 5 matches and made it to the winners league...
Friday they will be competing again...
Wl, YM and SJ 's team will be competing for tops in the loser's league while WK's team will be competitng tops in the winner's league...
All the best to u guys and i hope u guys do ur best :D

:)
Now i gtg sleep.. in the morning i wanna go support these guys :P
haha
nitez all :D

Chinese song ha

2009-11-26T07:47:00.000-08:00

Im not exactly a fan of chinese songs... but i recently got interested and i kinda fell in love with this one... Please give this song a chance :) its lyrics is just beautiful...

Kieran, yeh... I am reminiscing...

New Fav from youtube...

2009-11-19T09:55:00.000-08:00

Here is my new fav singer on youtube... ha

i dunno why i like her voice lol.. i just do...
ha

A LOT

2009-11-19T09:46:00.001-08:00

I came across this vid... this group is talented :D

I love this song after hearing this version ...

Lyrics :

I've been roaming around, I was looking down at all I see
Painted faces fill the places I can't reach
You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody

Someone like you and all you know and how you speak
Countless lovers under cover of the street
You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody
Someone like you

Off in the night while you live it up I'm off to sleep
Waging wars to shake the poet and the beat
I hope it's gonna make you notice
I hope it's gonna make you notice

Someone like me, someone like me
Someone like me, somebody

I'm ready now, I'm ready now
I'm ready now, I'm ready now
I'm ready now, I'm ready now
I'm ready now

Someone like you, somebody
Someone like you, somebody
Someone like you, somebody

I've been roaming around, I was looking down at all I see

Happy ending?

2009-11-13T11:37:00.000-08:00

Do u believe in Happy Endings?

I just like this song :P

This video rules too :)

Haix...
everything, everything i wanted...
haha

HAHA

2009-11-12T10:36:00.000-08:00

All this reminiscing (is that how its spelt?) has reminded me of this song... now i cant get it outta my head...

Photograph by Nickelback...
this is a good amv too lol

Looking back

2009-11-12T08:45:00.000-08:00

For some reason i started thinking about the past.
I just looked back.
It's dark, but there were happy moments :)
Looking back, i remember times i was so sure i had fun :)
I just am sad now... It's like looking back has made me realise i have stopped contact with ppl i loved, ppl i was friends with.
Im scared too... ha
Im scared they'd forget me :(
And yet it seems wierd to contact them now...
lol
Dunno... I just see the path i have chosen... its bleak, and while a part of me wants this path to turn out right...
I just noe i'll get my fair deal of hiccups along the way... Im afraid i wont be able to pull thru.. its like i've nothing to fall back on... its just one bloody O lvl cert dammit!
ha
Its this fear that's having me this determined... but with such fervent determination, im still fearing...
i guess my greatest fear is probably uncertainty...
I just dun do well with surprises.
I really really really regret not handling poly life the right way...
Haix...

who knew Stitch had an anime version... wth

I have a thought... ha
But i dun want to share :P
I think its cuz i cant share.
I dunno how to share it LOL!
its something i have done... i realli realli regret it! i did it, and am facing the consequences now... it wrenches my heart, but its kinda late to make changes.
I guess it shows how important choices are.
I made a bad choice.

Its nothing sinful tho. I still Love u JeeJee :)
Btw, Jesus is my best friend so him and i have nicknames :)
Im JamJam, so He is JeeJee :D

Appreciate:D

2009-11-11T10:50:00.001-08:00

A little shoutout to everyone :
PLEASE APPRECIATE PEOPLE AROUND YOU, YOU NEVER KNOW WHEN THEY WILL LEAVE
I just feel i sometimes take ppl for granted... and i dun realise at first cuz i tend to see others doing it 1st... i see others taking ppl for granted and i get all pissed off inside, then i realise im no better... so i shut up.

ha

anyways, Taylor swift is so cool :P

Thats her monologue :D
haha

I also recently got so addicted to the nobody by wondergirls dance... haha... its a girl dance, but i LOOVE it :P

This animation is just so damn cute la... Enjoy :D

ha

Treasure

2009-11-06T10:02:00.000-08:00

It's funny how you realise how precious something or someone is only when u lose it/him/her... or when u know you're gonna lose it/him/her...
haix...
Absence makes the heart grow fonder?
I dunno
I mean seeing the way ppl take things for granted, or ppl for granted... Its hard to believe that they'd care if the thing or person were lost.
ha

Some time ago, my lappy's AC adapter was spoilt so i could not use my com for a whole week.
Boy was i starved..
anyways, in frustration, i sorta let it bring out the mean side of me...
My sis she was in a bad mood, and she was not talking nice to me...
So i bluntly said," So when my com's alrite you talk to me so nicely so i can lend u the com... when com spoil u attitude me la!"
I was super pissed i remembered... She gave me one of her Smart-guy remarks which i couldn't care to hear cuz i was already storming outta the house...
I went to West Coast Park that nite...
I figured i wanted a breather... I stood next to the water and stared out at the boats, admiring the pretty lights.. Then i cried...
haha
I just couldnt stop the tears from flowing...
I hadnt shouted at my sis in forever and when i did, i realised how guilty i was!
but after that day, things cooled down.
we are now talking like nothing like that ever happened.. lol
but i just realised how easy my mood can swing... and funny! I didnt get ticked off by the youth at the youth centre, but i'd get so easily ticked off by my own sis...
I dunno la... anyways this happened like 2 weeks ago i tink... so im not gonna think about it anymore :P
ha
I miss my old voice... somehow ever since i had the sore throat, even after recovering, i somehow dun feel like my old voice is back at all... And there's alot going on in my mind lol...
I got alot of Hows in my head... more then Whys...
lots of unanswered questions which i dun count on being answered for a long time... but hate that its in my head :P

Just fell in love with this song... lol... hypnotic tune :P

Care?

2009-11-03T11:25:00.000-08:00

Well i noe how Christians shouldnt have the don't care attitude...
But its not entirely true :)

I can care less about what ppl think... and care more about what God thinks :)
So guys, im telling u guys this... dont bother judging me cuz i dun care what u think :D

A lot... haha

2009-11-02T12:43:00.000-08:00

Deep down, im biased.
Honestly, hu isnt...
Deep down i have always told my self i hate a certain kind of species or characteristics...
So if that species or character is seen in another person, i probably hate him/her.
But the heart is deceitful.
It is deceitful cuz humans are naturally biased.
As a believer in Christ, i have chosen to ignore what my heart tells me to hate from deep down...
I ignore it but it always SHOUTS... It gets tiring sometimes.. haix
I mean u can have a best friend but if he has that certain character that u hate, its hard to supress the feeling... Hard, but manageable, cuz he is ur best friend and its possible to overlook one anothers weaknesses :)
But how about if he Knows what u hate... he noes, but still persists in attracting ur attention using that "weakness"... Now thats just tough to overlook... I still cope:)
Im still overlooking and still maintaining the friendships :)
I just wonder how long more i gotta wait for ppl to be more serious... It's hard to grow with ppl if ur the only one trying to grow.... u only get pulled down...
I was reminded by psalm 1... the idea of sitting in the counsel of the wicked... ha
i'd hate to think my friends as wicked.
Godly before the ppl that matter, but behind closed doors, are we still godly? or busy planning how to seek attention thru sins???
im being vague here cuz im not aiming anything or anyone in particular... its a common problem in many churches, so shouldnt strike as a surprise ba...
the signs are hard to miss too, cuz the ppl are attention seekers, possesive ppl... could even be ur best friend!!! haha OPEN YOUR EYES AND PRAY FOR THEM PLZ!!!

I had depressing thoughts once...
It was a time in my life i questioned God....
I was really pissed off with how my life turned out and i felt like just giving up on everything...
i was shooting questions like "God, ha. Wonder if u care? lol I mean u so badly desire us not to sin, yet u allow us to be tempted by it daily. allow us to fall prey to sin. Sure we sin, but with all the temptations, its hard to resist. Are u sure u dun want us to sin"
It was just a little tantrum i was throwing i guess... i was crying throowing stuff around in my room.. punching the wall... lol like a kid.
After that i cried myself to sleep and when i woke up, i wasnt angry... i was miserable, but not angry. I then realised that i didnt mean any of the things i said to God during my tantrum. Cuz i remembered how i always felt strongly that God cares. I have so much in life to thank God for, yet i was so dissatisfied with the couple of failures i faced, i forgot that the good things to thank God for outweighed the bad... lol

It's just me... I do this alot... i do alot of thinking... sometimes i just space out, thinking... lol
and i ask a lot of hard questions. But one thing i have learnt.
I dun try to answer the questions too quickly... cuz God has His own timing, and He has a way of answering questions... i guess God just wants me to be more patient...

haha..

Some ppl cant take jokes...

2009-10-20T09:32:00.001-07:00

And when jokes go too far, sometimes ppl die.... but i didnt think this warrented killing... ahhhhhhhhhh nothing warrants killing.... ha
but seriously, poor kid..

Luck huh

2009-10-18T02:45:00.001-07:00

I remember a very very long time ago Uncle David showed us a video on lucky people... recently i went to youtube(In fact just now only :P) to find the video again....
up till that point when he showed us, i nvr tot ppl could be that lucky haha... i still dun believe la...
But here's the video...

Some ppl just have all the luck huh?

Sick

2009-10-17T08:58:00.000-07:00

Hey y'all.. Still sick.. but at least the fever's gone :)
Just stuck with a sore throat which isnt so sore anymore... just so hoarse...

My voice it SOUNDS ugly....
Yeh
It sounds like Freddy Krueger's face was on fire and being put out with a fork... yikes XP

This is Freddy Krueger in case ur wondering... Nightmare on Elm street???

haha
anyways, watched surrogates with the youth at vivo last nite.. :D Was an okay movie i guess... Was kinda sad... but i guess it was fine :)
RJ and rickson say they love my voice.... I dun tho... sry guys... im hoping to heal asap...
XP

anyways, this was just a lil update... XD
thx for the encouragement SL and HW :)
U guys are great buds :D
hehe

Whoa... Couples haha

2009-10-15T09:40:00.000-07:00

Love is such a beautiful thing yeh?
Having love in your life can bring you up as a person, or teAR u apart.
haha
what sets these relationships apart?
God :)
A God-Based BGR(Boy-Girl Relationship) helps the relationship :)
Having a common belief, a common belief in The Maker, a common Faith in The Father above, just helps the relationship...
ha
actually i dunno what im saying.
i have seen relationships that have lasted that are God based... and relationships that fail, its usually cuz God isnt present in the relationship.
Actually its not just limited to BGR... what was i thinking...
Its ANY relationship!
Friendship, BGR, Family... it just makes sense huh?
and yet it doesnt :(
i see it, i feel it, but i dunno the reason backing it.
I mean ppl say it !
Relationships that last its cuz they're God based and relationships that don't its cuz it ain't God based...
Thats just the christian politically correct answer isnt it?
Whats the real reason?!?!?
How come a God based relationship lasts?
So if i got married to a girl hu doesnt believe in God our relationship wont last? its doomed?
i dunno la... Love its big, God, He's way bigger... haha
After all, God created humans for relationships... right?
maybe even God outta the picture, humans can still experience love and have relationships and stuff.. cuz God made them, christians or not, to have relationships...
Im a christian, and im sad when ppl tell me A relationship that isnt God based is probably gonna fail... and thats the kinda relationship i see around me mostly... are these relationships doomed?
Cuz when it reaches the point of break up, ppl get hurt... i believe both sides get hurt. Do ppl need to get hurt like that?
Maybe just to be safe, make sure both sides believe in God huh?
God works wonders :)

haha dunno why i decided to rant on this.... haix...

Next rant : The Chase

Whats the chase?
I watched a chris crocker video and he had a topic on the chase...
Of most of the videos i've seen him do, this one actually made sense...
Haha, chris crocker makes sense.. lol
OKay!
What is the chase?
U noe how when ur dating and ur "chasing" a girl or guy?
yeh thats the chase we're talking about :)
Most ppl enjoy the thrill of the chase and thats really part of youth isnt it?
But most ppl have problems of what to do after the chase.. Like what do you do when u have finally caught him or her...
It's like a dog hu chases after a van and when it finally catches up, it has no idea what to do with it. ha
What happens when u finally catch him or her, and u guys are slowed down and still for one another?
is that it?
Im quoting Chris here : "The relationship begins when the chase ends, not when it starts."
According to Chris, the thrill of the chase is like "Oh, lets see if i can get that one", or, "Lets see if i can catch this one"...
Familiar lines? thats the Thrill of the chase...
apparently, to ppl hu enjoy the chase, relationships isnt about the Catch, but its more about the Chase...
Cuz when they Finish chasing the Catch, they get bored? and their relationship ends somewhere there?
haha
I observe ppl hu Chase alot. One could chase and have a relationship with a certain someone that'll last like a week? or 2? a month tops?
but that isnt what relationships are about rite?
ha
Maybe its cuz some ppl are too young for relationships, thats why the chase thrills them...
As u get older, u would want to noe true love and stop toying with others just cuz of the "Thrill" the chase gives u.. cuz its NOT about the Chase... Try to Concentrate on the Catch, ur partner...

In fact, there shouldnt be a chase... God is our provider... JEHOVAH JIREH, OUR PROVIDER!
He's gonna provide u with ur ideal partner, why head on into the chase?!?!?
just wait for the catch to land into u:) and then slowly walk together... dun run, dun jog, give up the game of tag and just walk :)
Thats how a God-based relationship starts right?
it somehow makes sense to me... lol but does it to anyone else out there?
ha

I found a video on importance of having a common faith in God in a relationship...
It helped me understand more or less.. but i have lotsa blanks in my mind
still... maybe i will understand when the right girl comes along huh?
haha

So true...

sianznesss

2009-10-14T07:49:00.000-07:00

Dunno why my mood suddenly so spoilt... i guess this is what u call moodswings...
AND IM A GUY!
wth.. i get moodswings so often la...
this song rocks btw...
Vanessa carlton's voice rocks... haha
The movie is peter pan :)

Hilarious...

2009-10-14T03:59:00.001-07:00

Zuai to the extreme :P

haha love love love

Sick

2009-10-13T23:10:00.000-07:00

Wah... feel damn weak...

Been sick since the day before and yesterday i hardly got out of bed at all... at least today i could get out :)

been FB-ing and youtubing and anime-ing and blog hopping :)
really want to go out tho... supposed to bring my jie to my youth centre today... but im just too sick to leave the house...

My head feels so light i think i might faint anytime :(

just saw this video on a fight in a SF bus... wads SF stand for anyway... San francisco? lol
anyways here's the video :)

gee... how can ppl be this violent... good thing hardly see this crap in singapore :P

Stitch stuck with keys :P

2009-10-07T08:27:00.000-07:00

THX HONG WEI!!!
haha

He sat there at the coffee shop of block 151, minding his own business, having his lunch.
"1 for $6, 2 for $10! Very cute one!" A person was selling keychains.
This person caught his attention.
"You want?huh?" the person showed him the stocks.
"hmm i'll take 2 please," was all he uttered and handed the person $10.
He remembered how much his friend loved Lilo and Stitch and the keychain was just perfect.

AND IT SURE IS!

Thx Bro! i love this gift so much :)

AND OMG

2009-10-02T13:59:00.001-07:00

AND OMG this is so cute...
Ever met a bear thats this afraid?
whoa.... CUTE but with a teeny bit of sadness for some reason :(

Happy Birthday!

2009-10-02T12:25:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Kieran And Hong Kiat:)
God Bless you guys man!!!

All the best in all that you guys do and may you guys grow strong in the Lord:)

hehe
Now for a little cutesie-ness... (Izat a word?)
Ohana means family... haha

I cant do that voice however hard i try :P
Love stitch forever!!! XD

OMG ADORABLE!!!

Free Running

2009-10-01T13:02:00.001-07:00

Whoa these guys are like ninjas :P

Wish Singapore had such buildings and obstacles :P
could learn to do these stuff.. wouldnt be afraid of falling either... ive got nothing to lose anymore haha
In life now, im like at the lowest lowest point anyone can be at haha
skool, family, friends... Life as a whole ba... its just not much anymore to me... Still feel like God is mainly a receiver of my mental ascends... i dun feel like He speaks to me anymore... dunno la... haix

Im yours

2009-09-28T10:50:00.000-07:00

I did an Im yours cover on Youtube... go check it out yeh?
To see my videos, u just need to type "thejamesdance" into the search box... then my vids would be the first few :P
anyways... the im yours cover is being processed now... so while waiting im blogging :D
When its done, u can go see yeh? in fact by the time anyone reads my blog, it'll probably be up XD

Awesome voice

2009-09-28T07:09:00.001-07:00

Love her voice... .omg la
hehe

Just browsed... saw her... LOVED

Straight away came here to post
lol

Yay

2009-09-28T06:53:00.000-07:00

Kieran and i got together and made a video last friday... its on youtube :)
Knock you down cover...
Bad sound quality tho...
but its something i wanted to put up still :P
not really bad if u could hear... XD

Kieran had a sore throat tho... had macdelivery before we made the video :P
hehe
but he did a good job :)
Thanks kieran for doing with me :)
heehee

Hey all...

2009-09-24T01:17:00.000-07:00

Yay... my video's up:)
Its pitchy in areas like i said... dun flame me k?
XD
Hope u guys enjoy it or at least i hope it ministers to u:)

The Lyrics:)

I know i hurt you
When i make the wrong choices
When im faced with temptations
I fail to Heed your Still small voice

Deep down inside me i feel all so bad
I know im wrong, im sry for making you sad
Y'noe im imperfect, im broken
So take not away from me salvation

Open my eyes, Help me to see
Your Glory, Your power, Your Majesty
Open My eyes, Help me to see
I've got You
Open my eyes, Keep me from Wrong
I know you'll be with me keeping me strong
Open my eyes, help me to see
I've got You

Too many times i've strayed so far, away
But still you'd stand there waiting for me
Each time i turn to You and Pray, Yeah
It's cuz i noe i've still got You

LOL

2009-09-23T13:55:00.003-07:00

This guy just let that girl whack him?!?!?!?
Like wth... he must have done something really bad XP

OMG
haha
Laugh ur ass away with this :D

Finally

2009-09-23T13:29:00.000-07:00

I finally posted my video on youtube
dunno when it will be processed tho
hope its soon
Its a poor 1st attempt, but do be light with your critics :P
when its done, i will post it here too :)

Yay

2009-09-23T12:24:00.000-07:00

remember i said i wrote a song?
Well i got around to doing a video too:)
I did guitar, melody and harmony!
haha
just some video editting and touch ups, i finally put it together in 2 painful hours... :P
but its a good experience:)
Sound quality isnt so good but i did my best..
Not to mention i was kinda pitchy in areas...
and
overall, even tho its a video, its more a listening song... not a watching song...XD
Cuz all u can see is me playing the guitar :P

Will post it when i have the time.... mite create a youtube acc. for this :P

hehe
excited...
Please pray for me guys:)

Bored

2009-09-20T02:27:00.001-07:00

Had church today:)
duh, its sunday....
Anyways, after church no one wanted to go out so i headed home and here i am blogging.
Bored to death...

Kieran borrowed my capo and somehow i feel like i lost a limb:(
lol
Kieran i want the capo back soon.... XD
hehe
anyways, Kieran and i did a video together on friday...
We attempted an acoustic cover on "Knock You Down" by keri, kanye west and neyo
It turned out alrite to me but Kieran says he looked retarded through it... ;p
But we will do another attempt, and we'll try not to look at all retarded in it XD
hehe

Kieran is an awesome singer btw... hehe

been having this song stuck in my head recently...
XD

the videos quite nice lol

LMAO

2009-09-18T21:38:00.000-07:00

i was randomly searching youtube... and saw this vid... stupid lol
Its just 22 sec. but i was laughing hysterically after... lol..
YES that means my eyes were tearing up and my face was all red like a tomato!
haha... okok

OMGOMGOMGOMG

2009-09-18T11:10:00.000-07:00

Found out hiphopRINROX is...
they are a duet group named Rin on the Rox
lol
THey have an awesome single called "torture"
Go listen:)
search yourself :P
XD

OMG new fav. XD

2009-09-18T11:02:00.001-07:00

New favourite talent on Youtube... a least their my favourite... XD
Look filipino to me... I dun really noe much about them... just excited to blog about them... they are????
hiphopRINROX
Love 'em
they are awesome singers la
PLz watch their vids... i post a sample here 1st:)
Halo by beyonce... not my fav. song, but they made it my fav.. XD
LOL
anyways, link around and see ALL their vids... XD
did i forget to mention they are kinda gorgeous too?
XD

I can see your halo, halo, halo... XD
LOL

Sarcasm

2009-09-15T11:45:00.001-07:00

Done some research on sarcasm and found some ways to shut people up.
Sarcasm is fun in my opinion as its an effective defence against stupid people :)
So readers of my blog, i hope u meet lesser stupid people after using these comebacks:)

"Help stop pollution! Keep your mouth shut!"
"Aww, that's so cute! You actually think i care."
"You have the right to remain silent. Anything you say will Probably be stupid!"
"It's better to keep your mouth shut and give the impression that you're stupid, rather than to open it and remove all doubt!"
"Did it take a lot of practice to be that stupid?"
"I see there are others waiting to insult you, so i will just wait my turn."
"Did you eat a bowl of Stupid for breakfast?"
"When i shut my mouth and walk away, it doesn't mean you've won. It just means i do not want to waste any more time on you who equals stupid."
"Stupid Should Hurt! (If i have to explain it, you must be in pain)"
"I don't think i am better than you, i just think you're worse than me."
"All people have the right to stupidity, but some people abuse that privilege."
"OMG, you bored the sarcasm outta me."
"I see you're playing stupid again, and i see you're winning.. again"
"Be gone! Out Out ! demons of stupidity!"
"I know you're not as stupid as you look. Nobody could be!"
"Sorry, i dun date outside my species."
"If you're gonna say something that stupid, the least you could do is warn us!"
"I'm not fluent in Idiot, so please slow down."
"You keep talking like i'm suppsed to care!"
"It is better to look stupid and keep your mouth closed, than to open it and prove it!"
"Stupid people shouldn't breed!"
"Now i know the speed of stupid!"
"It's not that i'm not a people person... It's just that i am not a Stupid-people person!"
"Not all men are stupid, some are dead!"
"There is no vaccine against Stupid"

K enough sharing. :)
I am sure you can figure out which context to use which line huh?
Guard against stupid people as best you can:)
All the best!
Jia you!
Gambatte!

Here's a little video to show how awful the world'd be if everyone were stupid...

hence, we have to stay vigilant and guard againt their growing numbers :P

New fav. anime

2009-09-15T00:39:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone
I have a new fav anime.... XD
07 Ghost!
Love it as much as i do naruto:)
XD

a little amv to appetise :p

Enjoy... i love the song too :D

Hate

2009-09-14T23:42:00.000-07:00

Ok.. Officially hate Kanye west..
how can he do that to taylor swift la.... wth
Embarass her like that... not a guy sia he...
Kanye west so unman-ish
stupid guy

What kinda guy does this... lol

AHHHHHHHH

2009-09-13T20:22:00.000-07:00

EWW EWW EWW!
Watched Singapore Idol Lately?
I just saw that Duane Ho guy get into top 13... WTH!
What's he doing there...
His rendition of david archuleta's a little too not over you like sucks la... OMG
Insulting... hehe
anyways, i dun think he will last long...
Plz Duane... leave the competition or sing nice songs better... OMG

lol

2009-09-07T12:06:00.000-07:00

miss this song.... XD
Havent heard it in ages... i can sing the whole song:D
hehe
its malay tho.. Jackie tot me how to sing it when i was sec 2:)
THX JACKIE:D

Miss those days we hung out hehe :)
I rmb we did a video of u singing Pudar by Rossa... remember? by esplanade :P
hehe
wish i kept that video tho... XD
hehs
learning "My heart" on guitar now :)
Hope we can sing together again one day ... this time tho i noe how to play an actual instrument :P
hehe
Miss u jackie!!!!!!

Up?

2009-09-04T09:57:00.001-07:00

I think i feel better...
Thx hong wei for showing support... hehs...
And amanda the awesome-est thx too... Love u guys TTM:)
hehs
And Hong wei shared this video with me and i fell in love with it.... I keep repeating it sia... hehs
So hypnotizing the melody... XD

Hope u like it tooo:)

sucks to have anything to do with me :D

2009-09-03T09:04:00.000-07:00

Haha... it sure sucks to have anything to do with me.... especially when im in bad mood
Damn
\What is it with me... Like i got PMS or something sia
So much mood swings...
Take it out on wrong ppl
I can keep my cool around some ppl... but some ppl just dun deserve my blowing up on them... but i did...
Why do ppl wan2 be my friend... Im nice... but not that nice! Lol come on la.... im like a total no-warning-b4-i-blow-up kinda bomb...
Blew up at terence when he would not heed my advice... see!??!?! im forcing ppl to take my advice...
Even if my advice is the sound-est possible, i should not be forcing it in ppl face yeh? thats just me... taking matters into my own hands...
Look at me and mr. cheerleader... I figured since God wouldnt do anything i'd be the Anti-mr cheerleader party....
Typical James huh?
But like i said before... i want to change dammit!
i stopped my remarks... i stopped my anti-ness to mr.cheer leader...
Sure i have been avoiding him, but thats better than hating him rite?
We need our space...

Somehow i wish NS would take me sooner.... lol
Take me away from here so i wouldnt hurt ppl... or better... Death~! take me away:D
haha now this blog which no intention of emo-ness, now has emo posts.... HAHA
Emo James... AKA The Not AKA The Immature AKA The Ass

I had close friends... they distanced from me le...
why? hmm... i made wrong choices i guess.
I just dun feel the connection with them anymore...

Fall away....

I had a saying :
The meaning to Life is that it ends...
My ex-friend turned that on me saying
The meaning to Friendship is that it ends too...

Wonder how i'll get outta this crap.... or maybe i dun need to... just die in it...

WHA... damn emo.... cannot take it le!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Change ?

2009-09-02T10:21:00.000-07:00

Decided to blog now cuz i want to stop something

Im gonna stop my crap with Mr.Cheerleader
I think i will kip ignoring him, but at least i will stop hating him
For my sake, and his i guess...
With that much hatred within me i guess i was not behaving like someone worth respecting... Tuesday prayer meeting i guess God spoke to me thru reminding of all my actions
I have been rly an ass like a big ass
haha
thats wierd
anyways point is im changing...
Im gonna change
:D

Pray for me ppl hu care yeh?

XD

Hu knew Aj Rafael had a sis... maybe everyone except me?!?!??!?? haha

Aww...

2009-09-01T12:55:00.001-07:00

haha
Love this video lots... each time i see it i feel the love... hehs
Its just so nice...
Wish i could love as genuinely as him ba...
I guess i have been a real ass lately...
But....
Aiyah no buts...
An ass means an ass
hehs
no excuses...
I should just shut up...
SHHHHHHHHHH
:P

Here's the video

Enjoy:)

Nice?

2009-08-30T12:06:00.000-07:00

You know those times when ur like really joyful? happy? elated? and u have that nice warm fuzzy feeling inside u and u feel like there is nothing u ever need to care about ever at all cuz everything's gonna be alrite? And ur head's full of butterflies and flowers and candy and whatever nice thing u can imagine?

WELL, TODAY JUST ISN'T ONE OF THOSE TIMES!

Got home from a great day at church, and with hanging with Samsam and my sis. Fun and joy stops when i reach home and start talking to some ppl.
Topic? MR.CHEERLEADER:)
Mr.Cheerleader AKA Misery Bringer AKA Mr. I'm-way-too-good-for-any-of-you-lower-class-of-humans AKA Truth Distorter AKA Mr. I'm-so-pitiful AKA FOC (Full of crap)

Yeh
Liar Liar Pants on Fire

LOL
Funny thought just occurred to me
I realise he hasnt actually done anything to me directly... I mean yeh sure he goes around speaking behind my back... but thats not so big a deal ba...
HAHA
I realise i am so pissed at him, cuz he takes it out on ppl weaker than him, ppl unable to defend themself
I look at that, get all sorts of disgusted and eventually am rite now... PISSED
haha
Best part, these ppl hu get "bullied" not standing up for themselves
HELLO!?!??!
u guys cant see he climbing all over u? Cant see thru his hypocritical act? Why is everyone helping him?
I realise my problem...
I dun so much as hate him... i just hate what he is doing
I dun avoid him cuz i want to hurt him, i avoid him cuz i dun want him or me to get hurt.
I am not thinking clearly now.... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
dunno how to express sia...

Aiyah

Just now talked to terence about some stuff... then said i would go to slp.... that was around 12...
now its 3.22am...
HAHA
After i ended convo with Terence, went to watch youtube a while cuz wanted to see Joash
performance... XD Which was awesome BTW!!! haha A whole new world is like my fav. song... :)

Anyways, then i randomly browse here browse there then found out wizards of waverly place movie out le... lol
then watch till now blog lor... XD
After the movie just suddenly thought about the ongoings of the past few weeks and suddenly with all the "MAD" in me i blogged...

I dunno how many times i have taken this to God. each time i feel a little peaceful after praying... maybe cuz i calmed down?
But then i go to mcyc see his face and he does some stupid thing and im pissed off all over again...
I dun judge him... I just think he can be nicer... but He proves me wrong every sickening time...
His actions are screaming at me, "JAMES!! I CANT BE NICER! DEAL WITH IT!!!"

Right now as i blog, i just thought of an idea...
It just occurred to me... This phrase..
An idle mind is the devil's workshop

Maybe i havent had something to concentrate on properly hence the devil must be getting to me, playing with my head...

I will find something to occupy myself with each time im at mcyc so i will not have an idle mind and think up crappy tots about him... haha
Yeah thats what i'll do:)
Worth a shot and i will be avoiding him too... Both works for me:)

BTW i just thought i would leave Joash's video link here:)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WBpq0IMHaFE&feature=related

I cant rmb how old he is, but Primary 4 i think... XD
Not bad i'd say:D
My fav. song so maybe im biased... but hu cares, i love it!!! haha

Thursday

2009-08-27T09:32:00.000-07:00

So its thursday today, OYC aint open on this day of the week...
but met up with some buddies and played PSP.. lol
had much fun:D
miss those guys hehs.... always seem to not see them often
XD
Today was happy cuz i didnt see Mr. Cheer Leader at all:)
He always has a way of ruining my mood, Thank God today i'm spared:D

Amanda The Awesome has been promoted to Amanda the Awesome-est!
XD
Hehs
Wha damn bored
im gonna try to spell my name backwords...
Semaj...
Wa so ugly....
good thing its the opposite way...
and the opposite of Semaj is James
The opposite of Ugly is Hot!!!
James the Hottie it is then:)
XD
K... damn bored.... just typing what comes to mind :P

Okie... damn random.. i guess i should sign off now ba :)

Semaj

Life's full of ups and downs... wish it were always up

2009-08-25T10:58:00.001-07:00

That's rite, life is just so full of up's and downs. no in between tho...
And dun we all wish it were always up? no downs?
hehe
I just wrote a song. It's about how often we sin and fail to heed God's little voice. And when finally when its over, u feel all bad inside and feel all sorts of sorry to God, hoping he'll forgive.
And i realised its cuz we fail to see His Glory, Power and Majesty thats why we sin so daringly. Like if only we bear in mind He is always watching us, would we still sin so consciously?
I dunno tho... just a thought

Anyways, still pissed off at Person.
He just keeps getting worse, making others miserable, making his friends (I dunno why they are friends with him, maybe cuz he is rich now?) all like him... You know those shows that show about high skool life and how there is always that typical stuck up cheerleader girl hu has "followers",also cheerleaders, hu enjoy making others life miserable, thinking their like some higher class of humans?
yeh Person and friends seems to be just like that!
haha

Is it possible for him to become more likable? Pride is such a big deal to him so its gonna be real hard for him to change and knowing him, he likes to take the easy way out. I mean please!!!
He cant even stick to one Girlfriend!!! Its like without a Girlfriend he'd die or something. Cant stay single for 2 seconds!!! Okie thats an exxageration, but seriously is he so proud that he needs a girlfriend to show off? WTH
And he even stoops to lying to get his Girlfriends:) Thats like damn low la Person! Damn Low....

Anyways, onto happier stuff:)
Hong wei is ending his exams like TODAY!!! haha after skool coming OYC(Oasis Youth Centre), thats my youth centre if you're wondering.
Miss that guy! hehe
been long since we actually had fun together:D

Anyways, if anyone out there is interested at all to come to my youth centre, let me noe yeh? Tag me or something:) We have a pool table and table tennis! And a couple of guitars!!! Cuz im like on "holiday", if anyone's interested to come OYC, i could teach you guitar:) Spread the word! Tell your friends! All are welcome:)
But bear in mind tho... The place is Christian environment, i dun think any of my muslim friends out there would be comfortable:)
SPREAD THE WORD!!!!
:)

Here is a little clip from hannah montana i found hilarious:)

Always wanted to have a fish fight... how come we dun do such "trading" in class?!!!

:P

Hey everyone :D

2009-08-24T10:45:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone:)
I just wanted to post todae... had a feel :D
Anyways take a look at this video:)

This song is just so beautiful la... hehs
reminds me of some stuff:(
The "holidays" for me has been very .... slow?
I dread each day lol
so much drama... hehe and im probably tired?
One day this person hates that person and suddenly my being a friend to this person is a crime to another person... im like SICK of it...
I have my little music wonderland:D where i go to escape this crap... but thats short term... either my ipod runs out of battery or my ears start popping :P

Had a Good talk with a friend earlier:D
Talked about a person in our lives hu is the utmost hypocritical type... i dunno... too proud or wadeva
Hate this type of ppl... yet have to love since God made it so clear in the bible...
God, make him more likable PLEASE?
hehs
Im struggling i realise...
I mean Love and Hate are like OPPOSITES! with probably a huge gap in between...
But in my heart, i make the gap such a thin line for this person... i dunno if i do things cuz i hate him or Love him cuz God called me to... We used to be such close buddies... hehs
i guess i cant let go?
hehs
yet im seem to have moved on... but sometimes the littlest thing he does that is just so narcissistic i boil inside...
WTH
And here i am ranting like an immature kid... im like friggin 18!
Still cant tell love and hate apart... or cant draw a CLEAR LINE!

LOL... i love them

2009-08-13T11:25:00.000-07:00

i just love these guys... so.... BIMBO
lol

Heart Chapter 3

2009-08-11T08:47:00.001-07:00

"We have to go now before Lust calls for backup." Lori tugged at his hand.
"Hang on," Josh struggled free of her grip," I want answers first. Who are they? How do you know me? How do THEY know me? And Where are we going?"
"Josh, I know it's been hard on you not knowing anything yet, but i promise I'll tell you all you need to know when we get to the others."
"What others?" Josh wanted to get some answers right there and then.
"Josh, you're the Heart Moulder. There are others of other elements and it's crucial that we meet up with them. A war is raging and we have to be prepared so we gotta move now!" Lori replied, tugging at his arm impatiently.
"Fine, but more answers when we get there." Josh did not know where they were going, but he did not really care. He was running away and Lori here just saved his life. It wouldn't hurt to give her a chance.
The two ran into a nearby alley and into a dead end.
"Are you sure you know where we're headed?" Josh asked skeptically.
Lori just smiled, picked up a nearby rock and tossing it in his direction, she called out, "Catch!"
Josh caught the rock. "Uhh, what's this for?"
"Look at it closely," Lori said, picking up another rock.
He examined the rock. It looked ordinary enough, except for a tiny brownish red, almost maroon, coloured square on its under-side.
"Okay, so this rock has a red square. Big deal," Josh shot sarcastically.
Shaking her head, Lori just laughed. She picked up another rock and called out, "Retaw!"
In the blink of an eye, she vanished.
"Whoa," Josh let out (again).
Staring at the rock in his hand, he wondered where he would end up.
"Retaw huh?"Josh thought aloud,"hmm... Oh what the heck! Retaw!"
There was a deafening whistling sound, like that of a kettle amplified a hundred times, in his ears. The scenery around him began swirling and changing.
Just when he thought he was about to puke, the world around him stopped spinning and thewhistling was replaced by the sound of crashing waves.
Still feeling sick in his gut, Josh sat down on the sand. The place he was in seemed normal enough. it was a beach. You know, typical beach with all that sand and coconut trees and waves. A beach.
"You're gonna need to get used to Zoning. Anyway, this is Retaw. My home, my Zone."
Josh turned and saw Lori sitting on the sand, beside him. "Zoning huh?"
"Let's go, the others are waiting," Lori said, getting up.
"Alri-" Josh was cut off by a sudden shot of fire that ran across the sand and began to circle around them.
"Oh no, why now? Josh fight back! Concentrate!" Lori shouted.
"Wha, what?" Josh was freaking out. He had no idea who was attacking them. Not to mention the blaze that ran around them was starting to make it hard to breathe.
The fire rong that surrounded them now rose a few feet above the ground and took the form of a snake thingy, like the one Lori used when she fough Lust.
Lori ran into the water. She raised her hands and a huge wave rose behind her.
"Josh, get out of the way!" Lori shouted.
"Huh?" Josh blurted out, clueless.
In a wave of her hands, the huge wave shot forward, headed toward the fire serpent, Josh dead centre of its path.
Finally knowing what was happening, Josh jumped at the nearest coconut tree and hugged it like a koala, his eyes shut tight.
The water hit, and Josh held tight to the nearly uprooting tree. When the water passed, he opened his eyes. The tree he clung to was now slanted at a forty-five degree angle. He turned to where the serpent was, only to see a huge wall of wet sand.
In seconds, the sand wall began cracking up and fell to pieces. Behind where the wall once stood, lay the burning serpent, ready to strike.
From the corner of his eye, Josh noticed something coming at him at high speed. Instinctively, he jumped out of the way in time to see a long wooden stick fly past him and land in the sand near him. Just as he was about to turn and see who had thrown it, a kick was nicely squared on his right cheek, sending him spinning three sixty in the air and landing facedown, hard on the sand.
Josh groaned. From where he lay, he slowly turned his head and saw a teenage boy who seemed slightly older than he was, asian looking, with spiky hair. The boy picked up the wooden stick, which apparently was a staff, and dexterously spun it, giving Josh a smirk as he did so.
Josh spat in the sand, noticing blood, and got on his feet.
"Didn't think the Heart Moulder would be this weak," the boy sneered and tapped his staff at the sand near Josh's feet.
When he did so, the sand suddenly turned slimy and Josh began sinking. He struggled and tried to pull himself out, but he just kept sinking. When he had unwillingly sunk till around chest level, the sand hardened.
"One down, one to go," the boy shouted victoriously and ran off.
"Let me out!" Josh shouted, pounding the sand in anger. He strained his neck to turn around to see Lori. She was fighting the fire serpent, constantly raising water walls to block the fire breathed out of the serpent's mouth. Seated on the serpent's head was an old man. He was moving his hands and the serpent was responding with attacks at Lori.
Lori seemed to be worn out as her moves were getting slower. When the boy reached the side of the serpent, he began spinning his staff skilfully. In one throw he hurled the spinning staff in Lori's direction.
It hit her near her knee caps, and she fell into the water.
"Lori!" Josh cried in despair.
Squirming desperately, thoughts raced through his mind. He felt so useless. He knew he had to fight, but he had no clue how.
"Concentrate, Josh. I know you can do it," a little voice whispered.
Stunned, Josh paused and looked around. There was no one near him.
"Concentrate, you can do it," came the voice again. It was Lori's voice.
"Lori?" Josh whispered loudly.
"Concentrate, Josh, concentrate," the voice whispered again.
Josh shut his eyes like he had seen Lori do in the fight against Lust. She was in trouble and he needed to fight. He could feel his the sand around him swirling. He tried to move his arms, they were free now.
He opened his eyes and saw he was standing on a platform of sand, hovering a inches above the ground.
"Whoa," Josh let out, excited.
He pointed in the direction of the fire serpent and the platform moved in that direction at high speed. Just as it was going to crash, Josh jumped off. The platform of sand hit the serpent, making it lose it's balance and tumble on its side. The old man on the serpent tumbled off of it too. The serpent of fire disappeared in a puff of smoke.
"Damn, we were gonna deliver the final blow!" the boy shouted, running towards Josh.
The boy leapt into the air, in the position to deliver a round-house kick. Seeing it coming, Josh took a step to the right in time to dodge it.
When the boy landed, Josh thought quick and placed his hands on the sand and concentrated. The sand around the boy's feet became slimy and he began sinking.
"Hey! C'mon!" the boy shouted, desperately clawing at the sand, trying to pull himself out. The harder he tried, the quicker he sank. The sand hardened around his neck level.
"Speak! Who are you? What do you want with us?" Josh barked.
"Enough," a voice came from behind him, "you pass."
Josh turned to see that it was the old man, smiling with his arm around Lori's shoulder.
"Lori!" a very relieved and excited Josh shouted.
"I knew you could do it." Lori grinned.
"What did he mean we passed?" Josh asked, looking at the old man in confusion.
"Well, we always test the newcomers to the team. To see if they are fit for combat. Otherwise it would be too dangerous to get them to fight alongside us," she replied, matter-of-factly.
"Could someone please let me out?!" the boy in the sand was apparently forgotten.
"we can talk more once we get back to Lori's hut, but for now could you let Sean out? By the way, pardon my rudeness, but I am Daryl, the Fire Moulder," the old man spoke with a politeness that made him seem like the total opposite of the fierce old man Josh thought he was from the fight earlier.
Josh turned and gave Sean the same smirk he gave earlier. He place his hands on the sand and willed it to open up.
Sure enough, the sand opened up to form a pit.
"Couldn't make a stairs huh?"Sean spoke indignantly.
He kicked a side of the pit for leverage and jumped to the opposite side of the pit, his arms catching the side of the pit as he did so. And with that, he lifted himself out.
Josh, as much as he hated the guy, looked on in awe.
Noticing his dropped jaw, Lori explained," Sean is a merger. He can do moulding on almost anything but he needs his staff. Without his staff he cannot do any moulding. However, he makes up for that weakness with his quick reflexes and martial arts."
Sean smirked and started walking off. Josh just watched as he walked off. How can anyone be this proud, he thought.
"Let's go to Lori's now," Daryl said, an arm over Lori's shoulder and the other over Josh's.
Josh felt warm. For once in a very long time, he felt the warmth of a family. Silently, Josh vowed he was going to learn to fight and treasure these guys.
"Yes, let's go," he replied the old man, as they started walking to Lori's place.

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Hope this was okay for a long wait. XD
Will come up with chapter 4 but no guarantees when i will post lol
ASAP i hope... hehe
anyways, as usual, Comment :)
thx guys!

Wow... so long... AGAIN!!!

2009-08-11T08:42:00.000-07:00

LOL!
Its been so long since i last posted... again!!!
haha
anyways, i will begin posting Heart Chapter 3 once i post up this blog... lol
actually just want to say SRY to everyone hu has been waiting for Heart chapter 3.
I am so sry for being lazy:(
but i will buck up:)
Manage to think up chapter 3:D
now i will finally post it up!!! haha
i dunno if its good tho, u guys decide:)
anyways, i just saw this picture on my friend Hani's blog haha... made me laugh like like crazy lol
here it is:

Maybe a little something to brighten ur day? hehe i dunno
lol
that indian lady look damn fierce la....haha
anyways, gotta start posting chapter 3:)
Will get back soon:)

HELLO!

2009-07-30T13:14:00.000-07:00

Haha
Hi everyone
I wan2 start by thanking someone...
Kieran
He intro this song to me:D
It's title is Cry by Rihanna
I think it best describes how i feel now...haha
:D
I guess i will post the lyric up... Plz listen to it tho...
XD
Love love love!!!
hehe

CRY

I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
'cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truly
But at the time it didn't mean a thing

[Chorus:]
My mind is gone, I'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears I'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed?
'cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe 'cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I should've never let you hold me baby
Maybe why I'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Can't figure out how you stole my heart

[Chorus]

How did I get here with you, I'll never know?
I never meant to let it get so, personal
And after all I tried to do, to stay away from loving you
I'm broken heart and I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry

[x2]
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

All my life...

It's been so long

2009-07-30T04:36:00.000-07:00

HA
It's been so long!
I thought i would have discipline to blog, end up didnt really blog everyday... in a blink its been a month!!!
haha
Heart chapter 3 should be up later on... now i just decided to blog up some feelings:D
I feel so empty nowadays.
Like i dunno what i am living for... lol
dun get me wrong, not being emo.XD
Just feel like i havent accomplished anything ba.
Been living each day that passes.
And i dun feel ready for army at all!!! like psychologically i feel so unprepared, sometime back i felt i was... but the letter not arriving at all is just killing me!!!!
haha
But recently managed to talk to a friend i feel i havent talked to in awhile. I mean skool is such a bitch! i dun have skool la, but He got. so its what keeps us from talking much lor.
Hate that XD
But at least we talk now:D
hehs
I miss dancing so much la!
i think i mite consider getting the youth together to dance michael jackson's "Thriller" for the Christmas Carnival:D
but i dunno if i will be able to get it together. Wants NS hits, i wont be around much
XD
I hope i can ba
May God allow:D

recently been listening to this song. its supposed to be a love song, but i want to sing it to God lol
haha
here's the lyrics:D

ZERO GRAVITY

Tell me what you did to me,
Just there beneath my feet.
Didn't even notice we were miles above the ground.
I'm not afraid of heights,
We crashed into the sky,
Didn't know that I could feel the way that I do now.
I'm not asking for an explanation,
All I know is that you take me away,
And you show me how to fly.

Nothing brings me down,
When you're around.
It's like zero gravity.
The world just disappears when you're here,
It's zero gravity.
When things get messed up,
You lift my head up,
I get lost in the clouds.
There's no sense of time with you and I,
It's zero gravity.

The edges fade away,
'Till there's no more shades of gray,
You only have to whisper anything at all.
You opened up my eyes,
You turned my lows to highs,
And that's the only way that I know how to fall.
Not gonna analyze and try to fight it,
Don't even care if it makes no sense at all,
Cause with you I can fly.

Nothing brings me down,
When you're around.
It's like zero gravity.
The world just disappears when you're here,
It's zero gravity.
When things get messed up,
You lift my head up,
I get lost in the clouds.
There's no sense of time with you and I,
It's zero gravity.

You make it
So easy
To just drift away
I can't
Imagine
Being without you

Ohhhh

Don't think about...
Don't think about...
Don't think about...
Yeah yeah
Don't think about...
Don't think about it

Nothing brings me down,
When you're around.
It's like zero gravity.
The world just disappears when you're here,
It's zero gravity.
Nothing brings me down,
When you're around.
It's like zero gravity.
The world just disappears when you're here,
It's zero gravity.
Zero gravity

I hope i find my days more fulfilling in the recent future...haha

Heart Chapter 2

2009-06-22T11:17:00.001-07:00

The backdoor of the truck flung open and the ice-cream man ran out shouting, "Monster!"
Seeing the terrified expression on the man's face, Josh hurried over to see the inside of the truck. What he saw made him gasp.
Overturned tubs of ice-cream, melted ice-cream dripping off shelves, and in the focus of this sight stood the same impish lizard he had faced earlier. This time, it was grinning as it stared at Josh.
"What is that thing?" the ice-cream man stammered, as they watched the creature turn to continue messing up the truck.
Josh raised his shoulders. He had no idea himself. All he knew was that he was angry. Nothing made sense at all. The creature was smiling as though it was here to ruin his day on purpose.
In his anger, Josh picked up a nearby stone and threw it with all his might at the creature. The stone hit the creature square on the back of its head and it was sent crashing into the front seat of the truck. The creature lay facedown in the pool of ice-cream, unconscious.
"Whoa, nice shot son. Saved my truck. Haha!" The ice-cream man climbed in to get the lizard. "Now to get rid of this."
Josh felt warm. He felt relieved that the impish creature was defeated. Josh smiled to himself.
All of a sudden, a bat flew down from nowhere, just past Josh's ear and into the truck. It landed on the ice-cream man's neck just as he was picking up the unconscious lizard.
The ice-cream man screamed. In five seconds, he shrivelled up and turned to dust. Josh fell to the ground, paralyzed by fear. What was that thing?
The bat was now surrounded by smoke and when the smoke cleared, a lady stood in its place.
"tsk, tsk,tsk. Ice-cream men don't taste like ice-cream at all. Hahaha!" the lady, dressed in a black tube dress, laughed smacking her lips.
When she did so, Josh spotted two pointed teeth, you know the kind vampires had? those kind.
"So, the Heart Moulder of this era is just a kid huh? You would be just fine for dessert!" the lady let out an evil laugh and then bared her pointy teeth at Josh.
Josh was too scared to move. Tears were streaming down his cheeks as he stared at the real life vampire before him.
This was it. This had to be it, Josh thought.
His time was up and suddenly, running away from that hell of his home seemed like a bad idea. Josh clamped his eyes shut as the vampire inched closer.
"Duck Josh!" came a voice from behind him.
"Huh?" uttered Josh as he turned to see who it was, only to get hit by a sudden gush of water which sent him sprawling on his side on the road with an "Oof".
Painfully, Josh turned his head from the ground and saw a tanned girl with a ponytail who looked to be about his age.
"Ha! Even the Water Moulder is a kid now. Hahahahaha!" the vampire laughed, mockingly.
"Shut it Lust," said the girl cool-y and she closed her eyes.
"Whoa, aren't you a rude bitch. Maybe before i have the boy, I should-" There was a loud rumbling sound coming from beneath the ground, interrupting the vampire, or Lust.
A manhole cover behind the mysterious girl burst open and a huge gush of water blew out, taking the form of a gigantic serpent.
Josh watched, amazed. Who is that girl, he thought.
The girl's eyes opened.
"Have me first?" she said, completing Lust's sentence. Then she pointed at the evil vampire. "I don't think so."
As if in response, the water serpent thingy charged directly at Lust. The vampire let out a shriek just before the water hit her. The water pushed her all the way into the truck. The force sent the truck speeding forward and crashing into a lamp post.
"Wow, "Josh muttered under his breath. The mess was truly a sight to behold.
"Are you gonna lie around all day?"
Josh turned and saw the mysterious girl.
He scrambled to his feet, ignoring the pain his grazed knees were giving him.
The girl broke into a cheery smile and streatched her right hand before her to shake Josh's. "The name's Lori."
"Lori," Josh repeated quietly, smiling.
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End of chapter 2

Chapter 3 will be out soon :) stick around and get ur friends to read if possible:)
It's encouraging when people read:) btw, do tag what u think about the story so far.
It's late, gotta sleep.. XD Nitez!!!!
:)

What i have been up too...

2009-06-17T08:35:00.001-07:00

Hi everyone!
or huever... lol
anyways, i noe i havent been blogging
Its sorta not my thing, but i am gonna try to make it my thing... XD
Thx Passerby. I really feel encouraged that u like my story. For that i will try to do Do up chapter 2. I got stuck at ice cream man, but i will figure something... i noe i will:)
I think i will put a link to my facebook for ppl hu want to noe me ba.
hehs
Keep coming:)
BTW, i have been watching Boston Legal Episodes.... they ROCK!!!
I highly recommend anyone interested in lawyers hu debate to watch it, cuz this series is funny in the sense they make the "debates" funny too... i promise anyone will love it:)
WATCH BOSTON LEGAL!!!

LOL

2009-05-28T21:50:00.001-07:00

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Heart Chapter 1

2009-05-27T09:00:00.000-07:00

Josh Grey was an ordinary teenage boy. being 15, nothing seemed interesting anymore, least of all school.

"Daydreaming again huh? Mr.Grey?"
Josh looked up from his desk and then looked back out the window next to him.
Mr. Riggs, the maths teacher, rolled his eyes and went back to teaching.
Mr. Riggs' voice trailed off as Josh sank back into his thoughts on what he would do once school ended.
"B-Ring..." The school bell went. School had ended and Josh had no plans. Sluggishly, Josh got up with his bag and decided he would head home.
He took the usual route home. The grey clouds above him gave him some sort of peace. There was never any sun around Parry Lane. In a way, the grey clouds meant things weren't any different. Josh hated change. He had parents when he was little. That changed when they were killed in a car accident. Josh hated that fact for ever since then, he had been staying with his drunkard for an uncle.
The usual route home always led him past the badly-littered park. Kicking an empty Coke can towards a nearby bin, Josh was a little amused at the irony of how a badly-littered park had bins.
Why bother having bins when people won't use them, he thought.
The bin before him started rattling and much garbage was spewed out of it as it shook. Curious but a little scared, he took small steps towards the bin.
Suddenly, out jumped a creature about the size of a full-grown rat. Only, it looked like some mutated lizard thingy, with sharp claws and it looked like it was just angry. Strange thing was that it bore a big 'W' on it's chest. Josh stumbled backwards. The creature was baring its teeth at Josh now.
An extremely frightened Josh turned to get up and run. A sharp pain shot through his shoulder as he was doing so. The creature had jumped on him and was biting into his shoulder. Blood had been spilt. He got up and reached for the lizard-ish creature, however he was too slow and it scrambled down to his right hip and took a bite there.
Josh let out a cry in agony. Seeing a nearby tree, he hurled himself at it. the creature let out a growl as the impact threw it off of Josh. The two now stood facing each other.
Josh could feel warm blood flowing down his back. The pain was simply excruciating. Teeth clenched, he stared at the creature with fury in his eyes. This was not a good day at all for him.
The creature made a jump at him. Instinctively, he flung out his hands. As if by some invisible force, the creature was flung away before it could touch him. It was sent sprawling several feet away and crashed into a rock. The creature with the angry look all this while, now had a look of confusion too. It let out a scream in anger, touched the nearby rock and disappeared.
Josh stared at the empty spot next to the rock where the creature was standing just a second ago. How did it disappear, he wondered. He jogged over to the rock and searched all around it. The little freak was no longer there. And how had he thrown that 'thing' all the way here without touching it, he thought. The pain in his shoulder interrupted his thoughts. He had to get home to nurse his injuries.

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"34, Parry Lane" the sign before him read. Josh had been staying in this shack with his drunkard uncle ever since his parents died. Like most stories, drunkard uncles are never nice.
"Izat you brat?" his unclle called from the kitchen.
Drunk again, Josh thought.
Ignoring, he bolted up the stairs to his room. He was not in the mood to deal with his uncle now.
Josh stood in front of the mirror in his room, and began removing his torn and blood-drenched shirt. His wounds still ached, causing him to flinch a few before he managed to get out of the shirt. He looked to where the wounds were. No scratch marks, no bite marks, nothing. He carefully surveyed his right arm where he was sure would have gotten a bruise from banging into that tree. Nope, no bruise. Josh ran his fingers over his shoulder where bite marks should have been.
"Whoa..." he muttered under his breath.
"Why don't you reply me Brat?!" his unclle stormed into his room.
He stopped short when he saw the tattered shirt on Josh's bed.
"Why you! Got into a fight huh? I send you to school for a damn education and you treat it as some training for some pro wrestling huh?" With that, his uncle slammed the bottle of Baron's he came in with onto the floor. Glass shattered and scattered all over the bedroom floor.
Josh was filled with a sudden surge of rage. What a bad day it had been, long day at school, fighting some creature, many unanswered questions and only to come home to an uncle who would not offer a single kind word. He had had it.
Josh reached under his bed for a sling bag he had packed long ago when he had planned to run away once, and dashed out of the room. His uncle was shouting after him, but Josh did not care. He was bent on leaving this time. Out the front door he ran and did not stop until he was sure he was a mile away from home. He calmed down and leaned against a nearby wall to rest.
Hand on his gut, Josh realised he was hungry.
The familiar sound of an ice-cream truck rang nearby.
Mmm, Ice cream would definitely hit all the sore spots, Josh thought to himself.
He jogged over to the side of the truck and was greeted by the cheerful character of an ice-cream man.
"What would you like lad?" came the country-accented greeting.
"A single of chocolate on a wafer cone, thanks." Josh smiled for the first time that day.
"Coming right up!" the man smiled back and withdrew into the truck to prepare.
"What the... ahhhh!!! Help!" came a sudden shout from inside the truck.
The backdoor of the truck flung open and the ice-cream man scrambled out frantically, shouting, "Monster!"

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End of Chapter 1

Hope u guys liked it. i had fun writing it. Please leave ur critics in the tag box before u leave my page yeah? I wanna improve as a writer:D
Thanks!

Story characters.

2009-05-27T07:34:00.000-07:00

Yo... The title of my story is "Heart"
I drew out some characters tho.
Like i only drew out the badguys... LOL
Anyways, here they are, pardon poor picture quality...
I suck at drawing too... I hope the storyline makes up for it.
Oh yeh and the bad guys have attributes and the names of the Seven Deadly Sins.
For your convenience, I will type out the fine writing here that is on the drawings.

Gluttony : Impish Fella who can eat eat anything.
Greed and Envy : Twins. Acrobatic Pros.
-Greed: Wants everything as nothing will ever be enough
-Envy: Jealous. Does not want others to have what they cannot have for herself.
Sloth : Lazy. Incredibly Strong.
Wrath : Impish Fella who seems angry at everything. Sharp cllaws tear thru anything.
Lust : Hot. Evil. Sucks the blood outta Victims. Vampire perhaps?
Pride : Leader. Kid. Incredibly Smart. Loves putting others down. (Powers still unknown)

They are Sin. the team name so called...
LOL
story should be coming up soon. :D
Im excited...XD

O.o

2009-05-25T10:44:00.000-07:00

Story of the past to years of my life.
I got in to Ngee ann poly, but i guess i wasnt ready for studying and i had every intention to get outta that skool. Like maybe switch course and stuff... things didn't exactlly work out and i ended up getting dismissed.
Rite now i am awaiting NS. Like maybe go away for national service for 2 years and then come back and study again.
So while waiting now, i have been going to OYC a lot and growing strongly in the Lord:)
He has got me thru tough times before, so i noe He is real.
I have recently started writing a book. I sorta got inspiration to do it.
I started out drawing some characters out and then figured what the heck and then decided to just write a storyline based on em'. Random i know...
haha
Its really late now... i'm gonna go sleep:D
Nitey Nitez!!!

1st Post

2009-05-25T09:27:00.001-07:00

I know i have had previous blogs and they all were emo stuff.... now i want to have a new blog. like a fresh start y'know?
like maybe write a story and stuff...XD
I dunno... lets see what this blog does for me:D